nakasagad na po (It depends, I will file charges if in case he becomes too much, when it becomes unbearable).” Researchers’ Observations: S32 is psychologically, physically and emotionally abused, but has been bearing the pain all to herself. Her two toddlers have witnessed their marital quarrels. Analysis: S32 is not being open about her experiences of violence but she just sheds tears, as her manifestation of her expression of emotional pain. Survivor 33 S33 is from San Roque, who has been married for 22 years and she has four children aged 21, 20, 18 and 9 years old. Ever since they have their fight because he was under the influence of alcohol. He insulted, shouted at her and kept on looking for a reason to cause another argument. Sometimes she threatened her husband that she was going to report it. She just thought about her children and told to just ignore it. “Parati kong iniisip ang future ng mga anak ko. Hindi ko rin kaya ang humiwalay sa asawa ko kahit saglit, pero hindi rin natin masabi. Malaki na rin mga anak ko nagtratrabaho na siguro kakayanin lang tsaka isa pa may pinag-aralan mga anak ko (I often think of the future of my children. I cannot also bear being separated from my husband even for a while, but we cannot also tell. My children are already grown up, probably working already. Also, my children have been schooled).” “Wala naman akong problema sa mga police, ‘yun lang minsan, nakakahiya para sa parte ko parang mawalan ako ng dignidad (I do not have problems with the police, it’s just that’ at times I feel embarrassed on my part like I am losing dignity).” “S’yempre, kung binubugbog na ako ng sobra, ‘yung may maga injury na talaga. ‘tsaka ilang beses rin ako naka attend ng seminar para sa 4Ps tungkol sa mga karapatan ng kababaihan (Certainly, if I am mauled too much, when I would have injuries already. Also, I have already attended a seminar for Ps about the rights of women).” 64