parang itong panganay ko, kapag nakakakita siya ng naka-uniporme, [sinasabi] “walang silbi ‘yang mga ‘yan, sila rin pumapatay. Na-iba na ang emosyonal na tingin nila sa mga naka-uniporme. (Region I) One interviewee said that her teenage granddaughter was affected when rumor went around her school that her mother (EJK victim) was sexually assaulted before killed (Region I). [Y] ung apo ko na anak niya, si JC, nung nag-aaral pa siya dito. Noong namatay ang Nanay niya, inaano ng mga kaklase niya.Iyak ng iyak yan pag umuuwi dito….Kasi sinasabi daw ng mga kaklase nila na nung namatay daw ang Mama niya, yung ari daw ng Mama niya eh pinasukan daw ng bote. Tinanong ko naman sa mga pulis, “Nung namatay ba yung anak ko, nakita nyo ba na pinasukan ng bote sa ari niya?”“Hindi naman po. Wala naman po.“ Wala ang sagot nila sa akin. In her concern for her granddaughter, theinterviewee took effort to trace the source of the rumor but was unsuccessful. At the time of the interview, the child was already studying in another province. Concern over the psychological impact on children was also mentioned as reason one woman did not want to tell her younger children yet about what happened to their father. Children asdirect witnessesto the killing were also reported: Nawitness ko mismo. Pero mas nakita ni B. Nag-aalis kasi ako ng agiw. Si B nakita ko parang gusting sugurin yung bumaril sa Papa niya kaya tinutukan din siya. Takot na takot ako. Akala ko noon Mamamatay na din kami. Si B, yung anak niya, ang pinakanahirapan. Nawitness niya na namatay ang nanay niya sa ospital sa Baguio. Siya ang kasama noon… ‘tas nakita pa niyang pinatay ang tatay niya. (Region I) H.was the one who was with C. when she shot. [H]e was playing near his mother while she was pedicuring when he suddenly heard a burst, then when he looked at his mother, his face was covered with her hair and slumped on the floor but he didn’t see blood. That was the last time he saw his mother…. He then ran out of the scene and ran to his [adult half-sister’s] place. [His half-sister’s] place was quite far from the scene but he was able to reach her place running. (CAR) F.was gunned down inside his house about 6:00 in the evening. He was then having dinner with his children when two unidentified assailants barged in and shot him. (Region XI) Other family members were similarly affected. Kami lahat apektado. Di naming mawari bakit nangyari ito sa kapatid ko. Sina Papa at Mama hanggang ngayun pag napapag-usapan ang kapatid ko palagi parin kami naiiyak kahit mahigit isang taong na siyang napatay. Masama pa rin loob naming sa nangyari para ngang masiraan na kami ng ulo, ganun po. (Region II) Panaghoy: The Philippine War on Drugs from the Perspective of Women March 2019 33